It's been a while...

It has been 4 years since I last posted and there are too many things that happened between those years.


Failed Marriage. Funny right? I was living a life that I thought was good. I became the breadwinner when it isn't really my role to play. I supposed to be the submissive wife, taking care of the kids but it did not happen. I was forced to work to provide for the family, while my husband is getting addicted to networking and such and doesn't prefer to earn through an 8-5 job. It's a good thing that I became a freelancer though. I can work at home while taking care of the house and the kids. The husband wanted to build his own business, he did through the help of his mother and siblings but due to their endless unavoidable problems, they stopped the business after a few months. Haha, funny again right? It isn't easy to run a business on your own when you did not spend a cent on it and you just wanted to be the owner and manager but you did not want to be the worker. Anyway, I just supported them in any way I can. The failed marriage came later, as there was a third, fourth, fifth party involve. He confessed the third and the fourth but I discovered the fifth late. I wanted to fix it, I demanded full honesty but he wasn't able to do it. He still wants to be in control of everything. He values his pride more than his family. I guess he wanted to be free. Free from having a wife who provides for his family's needs. He found his so-called "happiness" from others, especially women. So after a few months and it was the kids' school break, we left. It's been more than two years now and so far we are doing good in the city. I have peace of mind and I can decide on myself what to do without being chained. No need to ask anyone as I get to decide where to go or what to do.


Out of Town trip. It's been about 7 years since I live there but I wasn't able to explore other places unless it is a family trip and compulsory, I do enjoy being out of the house sometimes though. Being unchained, I was able to gain friends whom I trust now. We were able to go on trips for 2 to 3 days, exploring some parts of Luzon. It was a great experience so far. I also manage to go to my province for at least twice a year. Got to enjoy being with my nephews and nieces there especially my sibling and parents. We're getting old so we really must spend some time and bond with the family.

COVID-19. The problem of the world now. Everyone is suffering because of the virus where they have said has originated in China, because of people eating endangered species of animals. I am not really sure why they would want to try eating unedible foods! I can't imagine myself eating such! Disgusting! Eww.

I guess it has been more than 6 months that the virus started in China, it just spread on every country because of tourists and people coming back to their home country after vacation. The mild-lockdown in the Philippines started in March 2020, a day after the birthday of my eldest daughter. We were even able to go eat Samgyupsal at Romantic Baboy on March 15 at SM North Edsa, the hard-lockdown started after that. Every travel has been canceled to stop the virus from spreading. Anyway, the government hasn't flattened the curve yet and the values of positive cases are still going up. Hope there would be a vaccine soon, may God heal everyone!

Missing You

My brother died last April 24, 2016 for an unknown reason. Since he lives with my parents in the province (Capiz), we were notified with the bad news. He was buried last May 5, 2016, two days before his 36th birthday. His name was Ricardo Bonilla, married with one kid.

As I was doing the laundry and hanging clothes to dry, it seems that the fact only sinks in today. That he is now dead and won't be with us in the future. The only memory I had with him when we were still in elementary was I was the one he used to ask whenever he has an assignment. Although we are not that very close, I love him same as I love my other brothers and sister. 

He was taken from us suddenly, for reasons we weren't able to find out. My parents didn't conduct an autopsy after he died, they said there's no reason to do such since he is already dead. He just complained a stomach ache one day and was brought to the local doctor which they said didn't bother to check him thoroughly and just gave an advice that my brother should be brought to the hospital. Since it is a province where most people trust quack doctors than the real ones, my mother brought him to someone she know. The quack said he was poisoned, a poison that could kill instantly ( I wonder if there's a poison that doesn't really kill). The quack said he should be brought to the hospital too. Unfortunately, the moment they stepped out of the quack doctor's house, my brother died and was declared DOA upon arriving at the hospital. My mother blamed herself for that, for she didn't brought my brother to the hospital immediately. If she only did it, my brother is probably still alive now. But I am sure God has a reason for everything. Of all the tragic deaths we could imagine, I am still thankful that my brother didn't experience more pain when he died. Based on his friends stories, my brother often says that his stomach is aching which he doesn't tell my mother. He probably doesn't want our parents to worry about him and just keep everything himself. He often drinks alcohol with his friends too, probably because of his problems with his wife and their only child. Heart problems is hereditary so even we are not doctors, we assumed that he probably have problems with his internal organs due to alcohol ( as his tools shows like a mud) and experienced cardiac arrest on their way to the hospital.

His problem with his wife and son is a different matter. As much as we want to let the kid know of his father's situation, we weren't able to do so. The mother won't even speak to us even if we beg. They left my brother after Typhoon Yolanda struck our province that is about almost 3 years as of this writing. She said they were taking a vacation and since my brother trust her he let them go to Dumaguete. Unfortunately, they didn't came back. As far as I know, my brother visited but was threatened not to come again or else the relatives of the girl will give my brother a beating. One reason why my mother didn't let him go there alone as she was afraid of what might happen. His wife probably really hates her life with my brother or really hates my family and we don't know why. As I was asking my parents, sister in law and nieces in the province if they are really married, they said they are. The girl requested them to be wed in the church and I even joked that why didn't they invited me upon hearing it. The wife's statement is different though when it comes to her relatives in Dumaguete. My parents know as they were able to communicate with the wife's sister in Dumaguete. She says that they aren't married and was physically abused by my brother which is very different to what my relatives says. My mother says they do quarrel a lot but not to that extreme and after the quarrel my brother is still the one who prepares and cooks their food. Although my brother has a temper, it is very seldom that he could raise his hand and hit someone. Everyone knows he is kind, probably one reason he was taken by God suddenly.

My nephew's name is Gerald Cabalida Bonilla. He is now 8 years old as far as I know and on the second grade this school year. They are now living in Valencia, Dumaguete City. I am not sure of the exact address, I only got some of the info from his mother Lecel Cabalida's Facebook account, which she blocked me upon accepting my friend request.

Anyway I am writing this in case my memory fails in the next couple of years and won't be able to remember most of the details. I haven't seen Giboy yet but hopefully if just in case he is old enough to wonder why he have a different surname than his sibling and are able to trace his roots from Google, he will be able to see this post. Yes, he has a sibling now. My brother knows Lecel, his wife is pregnant with another man's child through a psychic. I were able to confirm this information recently as Lecel sister said they talked to Lecel to let the kid see his father but won't be able to because she has a baby and can't travel. I even said if we could fetch the child but I wasn't able to get a proper answer because she blocked me on Facebook.

We just hope that the kid is okay with his mother and we are still hoping that we will be able to see him even if he had grown up already. His cousins misses him so much.

January 2014 marks my 2 years of working as a freelancer

Happy Anniversary to me! I've never thought I'd come this far but I can say that I treasure the two years of working at home and taking care of my kids more than what I did when I was still working in the corporate world. It is not that I have lots of bad memories but struggling to have a time to be with my daughter is such a burden to me. Yes I was able to pay for her tuition fees but the bond between us isn't there. Even if you'll ask her who do she choose between me and her grandmother, she will definitely answer, "Gusto ko kay Lola!"

My daughter was spoiled rotten by her grandmother, even though she denies it. I think most of the grandmas out there won't admit but being a first granddaughter or grandson will definitely put you on the pedestal of your grands heart. And just recently she bought here a LeapPad2, good thing it is on sale at half the price.

A few months back, I actually asked a favor to let me borrow their credit card so I could purchase a cheap tablet for my daughter. Unfortunately, they've asked if it's a necessity and never bought it. After a month or so, I asked a favor again if I could use their details as I want to get a Globe mobile subscription because there's an ongoing promo of phone + tablet in one. And again, I was declined by them because they said it is not a necessity. But few days ago, she's asking about the gadget and she's buying it! LOL! Oh well, let her be. Now my daughter is enjoying it and my son is enjoying my daughter's Leapster Explorer too! A hand-me-down from his Ate. :-)

Anyway, it seems like I don't have a blog entry for the whole year of 2013? Goodness...I never thought I was so busy, LOL! This one is the first entry for this year. I hope I am able to post more entry this year as I am looking forward to work more even if I have a hard time managing my schedule. I am more focused to work more this year since I want to be financially prepared in the next coming years. My next posts might be about saving, business, stocks, insurance, and any other topics mostly related to money hahaha!

May is not the month for me

It's been a couple of months since I've posted an entry and here I am again, thinking other ways how to earn while taking care of my newborn baby.

The reason why I feel so low today is because of financial problems...again. I know everyone has their difficult times, their ups and downs and I am no exception. After a few weeks of giving birth, with no savings left but debts here and there, I feel like I'm only working now just to pay those IOU's I've made last April. It's just too bad because no matter how I want to work, I can't dedicate the right amount of time on it since I'm taking care of my baby as well as doing some household chores too. And there's this husband of mine, who's not so supportive when it comes to me earning money online. 

Another reason for this bad feeling I'm experiencing now is after I received a message from my sister. I actually messaged and borrowed money from her a few days ago and she was able to deposit the money on my BPI account during lunch today. She messaged me confirming about it and said my parents also needs money in the province too. I felt sad about it because I'm not able to help them. I really feel guilty too because I also borrowed from my parents for my CS operation last month without my sister knowing. I feel so helpless whenever I can't give something for my parents when they need it most and I still depend on them whenever financial troubles arises on my part.

Sighs. Why do everything in this world needs money! No wonder Bruno Mars and Travie McCoy is so famous for their "Billionaire" song and Jessie J for her "Price Tag"! Anyway, since I think that my problem is a problem of almost all people, I just have to think for a solution. First thing to do is seek God first, I wasn't able to pray properly since I gave birth! Second is to find another way to earn online, which I think came at the right time. I just hope that I pass since I'm still having grammar problems and easily forgets the word I want to express! By the way, I was declined again for a transcription test interview a while back in oDesk but I have to keep on looking!

Everything's fine ^_^

Went to the hospital for my check up early in the morning. Everything is fine, it's just my BP is low hahaha maybe because I lack sleep for a month now which is bad. I have to keep things balanced from now on but probably I'll still sleep late, I'll just take a nap after I send my daughter to school. I was able to have another Tetanus Toxoid vaccine and now my upper arm is aching.

I was able to work for an hour but I'm planning to make it two before I go to sleep. I have to work more since we'll be going to Manila this weekend and probably I might not able to work for long hours because of the event we will be attending. If I were to choose, I'd rather stay here and work all day but family gatherings only happens some time so it'll be better if I attend. Hopefully I'll really be able to work tomorrow non-stop.

Oyasumi!

oDesk again...

Last week has been a good week for me because I was able to complete my time quota on my hourly job which is 20 hrs/week. I managed to work for atleast 22 hrs since I've done another forum posting/ blog commenting task on top of that. I'm earning so little now, I know, but I think it can cover the internet and probably electricity bills for next month. Hopefully I could find another hourly job that pays well according to my posted hourly rate.

I've received a job interview last week, unfortunately I was declined. No bad feelings though because I think they didn't understand my list of available time when I answered one of their requirements which is to input my available hours on a Google doc file and sent over to them. The employer kept scheduling me for an interview which is too early for me although I could wake up at that time, unfortunately I am not confident enough because my laptop's microphone isn't working for Skype! So there, during the candidacy stage I told them that my available time is 9am onwards, she said they prefer candidates who can work weekdays at 5am to 8am in the morning which I am not available since I have to take care of my daughter's needs for school. So now I still keep on applying although most of it are declined by employer hehe.

Oh well, I know there will come a time that I'll be able to work for a job that pays well and isn't so much stressful since I'm pregnant. I'll just have to look and wait for it and keep working on the ONLY job that I have now (thanks to a fellow girltalker who recommended me). I am not losing my hopes yet, I could still apply for fixed price jobs if possible. I wanted to do transcriptions too and I'm actually applying for some job posts. Hopefully, I'll have the time to learn programming again even the basics like wordpress and such because it'll be good for my portfolio. I want to spend time learning how to get Facebook likes and other jobs that requires social networking too because I've seen a lot of job ads that requires them but I doubt if I'll enjoy those task. I don't know but I've got tired of Facebook actually teehee!

So there, I got to sleep now since I'll have my check up early in the morning tomorrow. Hopefully all will be fine especially the baby and hope I could still work even when he's out. Just two months left and I have to balance my time again with family stuff and work. Hope I'll be able to survive! Anyway, God will provide if we keep doing His will. c",)

Thank God its a jobless day! ^_^

This week is a very unproductive week for me. I wasn't able to work properly because of toothache and backache. I've been struggling for so many months now because of my cracked tooth and since I am pregnant, I am not allowed to have it extracted, not until after I give birth. I have to endure this for three months for the sake of my baby.

The backache was the result or my encoding job in Odesk. I worked for about five hours encoding PDF file to Microsoft excel. The job was easy but I guess my body can't handle the pressure at that time as I have to meet the deadline assigned by the employer. Unfortunately, I wasn't able to finish the five files handed over to me in one day. After two days, I was writing my sort of resignation letter to the employer that I can't work for the task on full time and she understood and ended the contract. I was glad that she ended it and gave me a 5-star rating after my comment for her.

I still don't have any feedback from my other employer, I want to finish that contract too since it is taking too long. It has been two weeks now for just $4 for the whole contract. My hourly rate job was also stopped last night and might resume by Monday, so I guess this weekend is also unproductive. I have a few job applications though and I can still apply for more if I'm in the mood to work.

My back still aches and I can't sit or stand for long now. Lying would be my best position so that I won't feel the pain. Streaming online also helps to kill the boredom. I still thank God for giving me an opportunity like this because I can rest and hopefully next week, will be a very productive week for me to earn more money.