It's been a while...

It has been 4 years since I last posted and there are too many things that happened between those years.


Failed Marriage. Funny right? I was living a life that I thought was good. I became the breadwinner when it isn't really my role to play. I supposed to be the submissive wife, taking care of the kids but it did not happen. I was forced to work to provide for the family, while my husband is getting addicted to networking and such and doesn't prefer to earn through an 8-5 job. It's a good thing that I became a freelancer though. I can work at home while taking care of the house and the kids. The husband wanted to build his own business, he did through the help of his mother and siblings but due to their endless unavoidable problems, they stopped the business after a few months. Haha, funny again right? It isn't easy to run a business on your own when you did not spend a cent on it and you just wanted to be the owner and manager but you did not want to be the worker. Anyway, I just supported them in any way I can. The failed marriage came later, as there was a third, fourth, fifth party involve. He confessed the third and the fourth but I discovered the fifth late. I wanted to fix it, I demanded full honesty but he wasn't able to do it. He still wants to be in control of everything. He values his pride more than his family. I guess he wanted to be free. Free from having a wife who provides for his family's needs. He found his so-called "happiness" from others, especially women. So after a few months and it was the kids' school break, we left. It's been more than two years now and so far we are doing good in the city. I have peace of mind and I can decide on myself what to do without being chained. No need to ask anyone as I get to decide where to go or what to do.


Out of Town trip. It's been about 7 years since I live there but I wasn't able to explore other places unless it is a family trip and compulsory, I do enjoy being out of the house sometimes though. Being unchained, I was able to gain friends whom I trust now. We were able to go on trips for 2 to 3 days, exploring some parts of Luzon. It was a great experience so far. I also manage to go to my province for at least twice a year. Got to enjoy being with my nephews and nieces there especially my sibling and parents. We're getting old so we really must spend some time and bond with the family.

COVID-19. The problem of the world now. Everyone is suffering because of the virus where they have said has originated in China, because of people eating endangered species of animals. I am not really sure why they would want to try eating unedible foods! I can't imagine myself eating such! Disgusting! Eww.

I guess it has been more than 6 months that the virus started in China, it just spread on every country because of tourists and people coming back to their home country after vacation. The mild-lockdown in the Philippines started in March 2020, a day after the birthday of my eldest daughter. We were even able to go eat Samgyupsal at Romantic Baboy on March 15 at SM North Edsa, the hard-lockdown started after that. Every travel has been canceled to stop the virus from spreading. Anyway, the government hasn't flattened the curve yet and the values of positive cases are still going up. Hope there would be a vaccine soon, may God heal everyone!

Missing You

My brother died last April 24, 2016 for an unknown reason. Since he lives with my parents in the province (Capiz), we were notified with the bad news. He was buried last May 5, 2016, two days before his 36th birthday. His name was Ricardo Bonilla, married with one kid.

As I was doing the laundry and hanging clothes to dry, it seems that the fact only sinks in today. That he is now dead and won't be with us in the future. The only memory I had with him when we were still in elementary was I was the one he used to ask whenever he has an assignment. Although we are not that very close, I love him same as I love my other brothers and sister. 

He was taken from us suddenly, for reasons we weren't able to find out. My parents didn't conduct an autopsy after he died, they said there's no reason to do such since he is already dead. He just complained a stomach ache one day and was brought to the local doctor which they said didn't bother to check him thoroughly and just gave an advice that my brother should be brought to the hospital. Since it is a province where most people trust quack doctors than the real ones, my mother brought him to someone she know. The quack said he was poisoned, a poison that could kill instantly ( I wonder if there's a poison that doesn't really kill). The quack said he should be brought to the hospital too. Unfortunately, the moment they stepped out of the quack doctor's house, my brother died and was declared DOA upon arriving at the hospital. My mother blamed herself for that, for she didn't brought my brother to the hospital immediately. If she only did it, my brother is probably still alive now. But I am sure God has a reason for everything. Of all the tragic deaths we could imagine, I am still thankful that my brother didn't experience more pain when he died. Based on his friends stories, my brother often says that his stomach is aching which he doesn't tell my mother. He probably doesn't want our parents to worry about him and just keep everything himself. He often drinks alcohol with his friends too, probably because of his problems with his wife and their only child. Heart problems is hereditary so even we are not doctors, we assumed that he probably have problems with his internal organs due to alcohol ( as his tools shows like a mud) and experienced cardiac arrest on their way to the hospital.

His problem with his wife and son is a different matter. As much as we want to let the kid know of his father's situation, we weren't able to do so. The mother won't even speak to us even if we beg. They left my brother after Typhoon Yolanda struck our province that is about almost 3 years as of this writing. She said they were taking a vacation and since my brother trust her he let them go to Dumaguete. Unfortunately, they didn't came back. As far as I know, my brother visited but was threatened not to come again or else the relatives of the girl will give my brother a beating. One reason why my mother didn't let him go there alone as she was afraid of what might happen. His wife probably really hates her life with my brother or really hates my family and we don't know why. As I was asking my parents, sister in law and nieces in the province if they are really married, they said they are. The girl requested them to be wed in the church and I even joked that why didn't they invited me upon hearing it. The wife's statement is different though when it comes to her relatives in Dumaguete. My parents know as they were able to communicate with the wife's sister in Dumaguete. She says that they aren't married and was physically abused by my brother which is very different to what my relatives says. My mother says they do quarrel a lot but not to that extreme and after the quarrel my brother is still the one who prepares and cooks their food. Although my brother has a temper, it is very seldom that he could raise his hand and hit someone. Everyone knows he is kind, probably one reason he was taken by God suddenly.

My nephew's name is Gerald Cabalida Bonilla. He is now 8 years old as far as I know and on the second grade this school year. They are now living in Valencia, Dumaguete City. I am not sure of the exact address, I only got some of the info from his mother Lecel Cabalida's Facebook account, which she blocked me upon accepting my friend request.

Anyway I am writing this in case my memory fails in the next couple of years and won't be able to remember most of the details. I haven't seen Giboy yet but hopefully if just in case he is old enough to wonder why he have a different surname than his sibling and are able to trace his roots from Google, he will be able to see this post. Yes, he has a sibling now. My brother knows Lecel, his wife is pregnant with another man's child through a psychic. I were able to confirm this information recently as Lecel sister said they talked to Lecel to let the kid see his father but won't be able to because she has a baby and can't travel. I even said if we could fetch the child but I wasn't able to get a proper answer because she blocked me on Facebook.

We just hope that the kid is okay with his mother and we are still hoping that we will be able to see him even if he had grown up already. His cousins misses him so much.

January 2014 marks my 2 years of working as a freelancer

Happy Anniversary to me! I've never thought I'd come this far but I can say that I treasure the two years of working at home and taking care of my kids more than what I did when I was still working in the corporate world. It is not that I have lots of bad memories but struggling to have a time to be with my daughter is such a burden to me. Yes I was able to pay for her tuition fees but the bond between us isn't there. Even if you'll ask her who do she choose between me and her grandmother, she will definitely answer, "Gusto ko kay Lola!"

My daughter was spoiled rotten by her grandmother, even though she denies it. I think most of the grandmas out there won't admit but being a first granddaughter or grandson will definitely put you on the pedestal of your grands heart. And just recently she bought here a LeapPad2, good thing it is on sale at half the price.

A few months back, I actually asked a favor to let me borrow their credit card so I could purchase a cheap tablet for my daughter. Unfortunately, they've asked if it's a necessity and never bought it. After a month or so, I asked a favor again if I could use their details as I want to get a Globe mobile subscription because there's an ongoing promo of phone + tablet in one. And again, I was declined by them because they said it is not a necessity. But few days ago, she's asking about the gadget and she's buying it! LOL! Oh well, let her be. Now my daughter is enjoying it and my son is enjoying my daughter's Leapster Explorer too! A hand-me-down from his Ate. :-)

Anyway, it seems like I don't have a blog entry for the whole year of 2013? Goodness...I never thought I was so busy, LOL! This one is the first entry for this year. I hope I am able to post more entry this year as I am looking forward to work more even if I have a hard time managing my schedule. I am more focused to work more this year since I want to be financially prepared in the next coming years. My next posts might be about saving, business, stocks, insurance, and any other topics mostly related to money hahaha!

May is not the month for me

It's been a couple of months since I've posted an entry and here I am again, thinking other ways how to earn while taking care of my newborn baby.

The reason why I feel so low today is because of financial problems...again. I know everyone has their difficult times, their ups and downs and I am no exception. After a few weeks of giving birth, with no savings left but debts here and there, I feel like I'm only working now just to pay those IOU's I've made last April. It's just too bad because no matter how I want to work, I can't dedicate the right amount of time on it since I'm taking care of my baby as well as doing some household chores too. And there's this husband of mine, who's not so supportive when it comes to me earning money online. 

Another reason for this bad feeling I'm experiencing now is after I received a message from my sister. I actually messaged and borrowed money from her a few days ago and she was able to deposit the money on my BPI account during lunch today. She messaged me confirming about it and said my parents also needs money in the province too. I felt sad about it because I'm not able to help them. I really feel guilty too because I also borrowed from my parents for my CS operation last month without my sister knowing. I feel so helpless whenever I can't give something for my parents when they need it most and I still depend on them whenever financial troubles arises on my part.

Sighs. Why do everything in this world needs money! No wonder Bruno Mars and Travie McCoy is so famous for their "Billionaire" song and Jessie J for her "Price Tag"! Anyway, since I think that my problem is a problem of almost all people, I just have to think for a solution. First thing to do is seek God first, I wasn't able to pray properly since I gave birth! Second is to find another way to earn online, which I think came at the right time. I just hope that I pass since I'm still having grammar problems and easily forgets the word I want to express! By the way, I was declined again for a transcription test interview a while back in oDesk but I have to keep on looking!

Everything's fine ^_^

Went to the hospital for my check up early in the morning. Everything is fine, it's just my BP is low hahaha maybe because I lack sleep for a month now which is bad. I have to keep things balanced from now on but probably I'll still sleep late, I'll just take a nap after I send my daughter to school. I was able to have another Tetanus Toxoid vaccine and now my upper arm is aching.

I was able to work for an hour but I'm planning to make it two before I go to sleep. I have to work more since we'll be going to Manila this weekend and probably I might not able to work for long hours because of the event we will be attending. If I were to choose, I'd rather stay here and work all day but family gatherings only happens some time so it'll be better if I attend. Hopefully I'll really be able to work tomorrow non-stop.

Oyasumi!

oDesk again...

Last week has been a good week for me because I was able to complete my time quota on my hourly job which is 20 hrs/week. I managed to work for atleast 22 hrs since I've done another forum posting/ blog commenting task on top of that. I'm earning so little now, I know, but I think it can cover the internet and probably electricity bills for next month. Hopefully I could find another hourly job that pays well according to my posted hourly rate.

I've received a job interview last week, unfortunately I was declined. No bad feelings though because I think they didn't understand my list of available time when I answered one of their requirements which is to input my available hours on a Google doc file and sent over to them. The employer kept scheduling me for an interview which is too early for me although I could wake up at that time, unfortunately I am not confident enough because my laptop's microphone isn't working for Skype! So there, during the candidacy stage I told them that my available time is 9am onwards, she said they prefer candidates who can work weekdays at 5am to 8am in the morning which I am not available since I have to take care of my daughter's needs for school. So now I still keep on applying although most of it are declined by employer hehe.

Oh well, I know there will come a time that I'll be able to work for a job that pays well and isn't so much stressful since I'm pregnant. I'll just have to look and wait for it and keep working on the ONLY job that I have now (thanks to a fellow girltalker who recommended me). I am not losing my hopes yet, I could still apply for fixed price jobs if possible. I wanted to do transcriptions too and I'm actually applying for some job posts. Hopefully, I'll have the time to learn programming again even the basics like wordpress and such because it'll be good for my portfolio. I want to spend time learning how to get Facebook likes and other jobs that requires social networking too because I've seen a lot of job ads that requires them but I doubt if I'll enjoy those task. I don't know but I've got tired of Facebook actually teehee!

So there, I got to sleep now since I'll have my check up early in the morning tomorrow. Hopefully all will be fine especially the baby and hope I could still work even when he's out. Just two months left and I have to balance my time again with family stuff and work. Hope I'll be able to survive! Anyway, God will provide if we keep doing His will. c",)

Thank God its a jobless day! ^_^

This week is a very unproductive week for me. I wasn't able to work properly because of toothache and backache. I've been struggling for so many months now because of my cracked tooth and since I am pregnant, I am not allowed to have it extracted, not until after I give birth. I have to endure this for three months for the sake of my baby.

The backache was the result or my encoding job in Odesk. I worked for about five hours encoding PDF file to Microsoft excel. The job was easy but I guess my body can't handle the pressure at that time as I have to meet the deadline assigned by the employer. Unfortunately, I wasn't able to finish the five files handed over to me in one day. After two days, I was writing my sort of resignation letter to the employer that I can't work for the task on full time and she understood and ended the contract. I was glad that she ended it and gave me a 5-star rating after my comment for her.

I still don't have any feedback from my other employer, I want to finish that contract too since it is taking too long. It has been two weeks now for just $4 for the whole contract. My hourly rate job was also stopped last night and might resume by Monday, so I guess this weekend is also unproductive. I have a few job applications though and I can still apply for more if I'm in the mood to work.

My back still aches and I can't sit or stand for long now. Lying would be my best position so that I won't feel the pain. Streaming online also helps to kill the boredom. I still thank God for giving me an opportunity like this because I can rest and hopefully next week, will be a very productive week for me to earn more money.

First post for 2012

After several months of hiatus and hibernating on my so called Igloo because of my pregnancy, I am finally writing another entry again for this blog of mine. Just want to share another blessing that happened to me this week because I was hired as a part-timer online doing a data entry job which I am capable of, well most of the people I think. I missed working or should I say "earning" using my own abilities. Although its not a big project but its a big break for me after working hard on writing articles (which I am bad at) and never gotten paid after they'd approved of my work.

During those months until before last week, I was considering reselling again just to earn. I even want to destash our closet and find those hand-me-downs from my sister in law which I wasn't able to use and sell them at a garage sale online hehe. But because of lack of a good camera and my husband keeps on insisting that I'll be able to use them after I give birth, I wasn't able to post it online. Oh well, I won't be thinking other ways to earn if only he can provide us all the things that me and my daughter wants >.< But sadly, I just have to accept that I married a man like him. But eventhough he is like that I know that my husband is trying his hard now and finding ways to becoming a millionaire by thinking what he should do so that his Vmobile network grows as he wanted it to be.

The money that I borrowed from my parents arrived this day in the afternoon. I am still thinking what mini business could I start with just a 5k capital. I can't open the sari-sari store obviously since it will require 4 times than that so I am stucked with eloading I guess. I don't want to pursue my first plan of investing it in a perfume business since I don't have a market here in the province and I am afraid that I won't be able to sell it here. I am still weighing my options and I already asked my husband to help me with it. Unfortunately, he has another idea in mind and I am still thinking if I let him have it.

As for now, I'll keep on applying on Odesk - a web where you can sell your skills. Hope I could get an easy project soon for a start eventhough the rate is low but continuous and really pays. So help me God.

Happy New Year, folks!c",)

After waiting for a month for my payment...I've been scammed

I am talking about the writing gig that I was discussing about the last time. After working for a few days that they'd say they'll pay me on the 20th of September and then moved to October 5, 2011, the only payment I received was 230 Php minus the Paypal fees. I worked for $48 all in a month but I only receive that from them telling me that I should deduct it from the $29. The $29 was my completed assignments from August 31 to September 10. I got another project which costs about $19 from September 11 onwards. Honestly, I have another project from them which I said I can't finish because of my pregnancy. I know it is my fault for not submitting in time and out of 8 750 words articles, I only done 4. I kept on telling them sorry since its my fault and even said that I will not get the payment for it which costs $16 I think. I know they are mad about it but its not a great reason for not paying me atleast near the amount due for me. I really felt bad about it and the stress add to the hard time I am feeling because of my pregnancy. I might be posting the articles I have made since they haven't paid me I guess it is still my right to use my articles and publish it here.

By the way, I met them in femalenetwork/girltalk with SEOfocused as the job poster's name. I just don't know if they are related to the seofocused website that I found on the internet, because they are using that name even on the virtual contract that they've sent me. The 230php was sent to me through paypal using the email limsandra80@yahoo.com. They've used the email thebrightlights11@yahoo.com at first and then they've changed to gwritersco@gmail.com (Great Writers Co.). The one who sent me the terms and conditions has a name Melissa Catalan on it

https://docs.google.com/viewer?a=v&pid=gmail&attid=0.1&thid=13219695d0a18dba&mt=application/msword&url=https://mail.google.com/mail/?ui%3D2%26ik%3Db466e9ccc5%26view%3Datt%26th%3D13219695d0a18dba%26attid%3D0.1%26disp%3Dsafe%26zw&sig=AHIEtbRE6O1hNG6XVUgyTQhS0WSXUKCaiQ&pli=1

I already emailed them thrice I think but I got no response until now :( I can delete this post if only they could pay me on the jobs I'd already finished.

I really hate insurance topics, why? Because my brain blocks all the information about it like what it is doing right now. I know there are a lot of topics about insurance over the net but they all contain same information that I've already written up. Ugh! I have to pass this tomorrow enable for it to be counted for the cut off but my mind is kind of going in a whirlwind state. Is this a writer's block? or just my laziness hahaha! I actually slept half the day and play Zeus half of it. And here I am now out of 15 topics I just finished two! Another bad thing is it has to contain keywords atleast 3 times! The good thing is that it only consists 350 words but the topic is I really hate. Ugh! Insurance! Insurance! Hope I'll be able to pass this tomorrow...

Finally landed a writing job!

After several days of applying for an online job, I finally had one! I was surfing the girltalk forum and someone posted a part time article writing work. After reading it, I emailed the thread starter since she had an email on her ad. After a while she said that she'll going to test my skills first and gave me a topic. I worked for it until noon but didn't submit because I am not yet satisfied with my work. I actually applied the writing technique I have done in the test article of my "super internet training" with sage and squid that they graded "quite okay". So there, I went to buzzle.com (the one website that sage and squid told me about) and read some posts about the test topic. I'm a little bit keen now about those writing styles which I got from reading from buzzle and qualitygal. Quality Gal, was another writing website which emailed me a few days ago and asked if I could do a test article too. So there, the next day, after re-reading, checking for errors, proof reading, etc for my test article about organic cosmetics, I submitted it finally. After a few hours, she emailed me back and said "Congratulations, you're hired!" I am happy but there's a part of me that I still doubt the employer and I have no way to search for her in the internet, just the seofocused site that she put under her name on the terms and conditions she sent me. Then I was expecting a topic that I will do, fortunately she sent me many hahaha! I don't know what to do about it and how will I finish it till the next day which is August 31 by 10pm. I'll have to write about coffee, 14 articles , 400 words each. After seeing the $18 I agreed hahaha. Dang! Seeing the $$$ mark, I got so hyper and think about how will my story will go. So I researched wikipedia, google, etc every info I can find. Since I am not good with words what I do is just write it on my own, on how I understand it. Shh, I even copied some sentences since I am lacking with words! But then it goes well and hope will never end

application for writing gig

Months ago, we spent 2,500php for my enrollment on article writing training and they sent me some modules. Modules that looks like a copy-pasted slash forwarded messages on my email that you can usually find in internet search engines. They sent me 8 files and only two of it has relevant information that I need. Then they ask me to do two 500 words articles right away giving me the topic and how many times the keyword will be used on the whole article without explaining what is the use of the keywords and other information. They said they want me to be familiar with time pressured works and knowing about the keyword thing, I comply. But what if I am really a newbie and doesn't have any idea about it?

I passed the two articles within 3.5 hours disregarding the quality so in the end they said that its all useless and lots of grammar mistakes. I got pissed off and told them that is why I enrolled in the training for my grammar to be corrected. I even told them that I have some important things to do the next day so I won't be able to pass the articles again but they insist that I pass them the next day. What I do is I ignored them and when my mood strike back after a week or two I think, that's the time that I redo the articles and passed it. They said its quite okay and they will let me have clients but I have to practice more. They will give me the other modules and give the site where I can get clients IF I will pay the balance of 2,500php (training costs 5k).

I've met two people in the forum that said that I don't have to pay for article training. My previous employer even laugh at me about the thing. She said that she didn't know that there's a thing like that. I feel like I've been fooled because there's no assurance that you'll get clients after the training. What if the site is like odesk, elance or freelancer.com that I already know of? That you have to bid and apply for you to get a job. I know it takes a lot of hardwork in applying a new job but seeing my situation on that training and the modules that they sent me its like a waste of time.

Sorry if I have to rant here, its my site anyway =P. I told my trainer (Kim) and even the one my mother in law know of (Ms. Jojie) that I will find a way first to have the money to pay the balance when actually what I am doing now is applying for possible ways to earn online. I know I can't write well because I can't really express and write the words well on my own but with so much reading and practice, I am sure I'll hit the mark soon. Even though my brain became rusty for years, I applied as a writer in a site referred by a friend. I'll try the transcription job too and hope to take the test and hope I pass it. Even if I could only earn $10 a week for a start, I'll be happy with it.

Investing to Paid-to-click: an experience

A few weeks ago, I got addicted to PTC's that in everything I do I always think about the possible earnings that I could have. I then ask my sister, if she could lend me money and she said yes so I bought an Alertpay fund worth $25. I invested at IB but still keep clicking on other PTC's like BTB and B4C, etc. I decided to go for verified membership with $3.5 fee and purchase 25 rented referrals good for a month, that was $10.75 . I was so happy that my rented referrals clicked the next day but their clicks are not constant, so I wasn't able to earn the target earnings I should have. I decided to rent again after a week another 25 rented referrals. After a week, there are inactive referrals that I need to recycle and it costs me much. I should've go for PAID membership which is $25 but I will lost all my investment because of a 1 year membership, I won't be able to rent rented referrals to earn. With other problems occurring on the website, my upline adviced us that we shouldn't invest now so I didn't renewed my rented referrals for another month or so. I withdrawed atleast $10 of the earnings I've got on my maintaining balance. I've decided that whatever earnings I will made until the end of the month, I will transfer it to my rental balance to rent or renew referrals. I'll be keeping active referrals that atleast reach the required average and renew them for atleast 90 days or so. Hope my strategy works.

Clicking my way to earn

I registered at incrasebux last march 2011 unfortunately I didn't get serious about Paid to clicks and just registered for a standard account. Now other members of the Girltalk forum are earning more than $100 now, take note of that. Hopefully, I'll earn soon too. I have 2 rented referrals who are not clicking now for 3 consecutive days that is why I'm feeling down. I've recruited someone too, a friend from my former work but she is so cautious that she has just signed up now and didn't clicked after she signed up :( so sad. I should find other way to recruit more since I can't rent referrals now for my balance is just $0.5, good for 1 rented referral only. I am still hoping that I get to recruit and soon invest if I have money so that I could earn. I should think positive in every negative things that comes on my way!

here i am paid to click

Ok since almost online na ako these days eh probably gagawa na ako ng blogsite for my ptc (paid to click) like my upline does. dapat talaga maging updated ako sa trend, makakalimutin pa naman ako. The problem is I don't have funds on my Paypal account kaya di ako makapag upgrade sa anumang PTC na sinalihan ko at parang standard member na lang ako forever. My solution is my nakita na akong sulit member na nagbebenta ng Paypal fund at naiisip ko mag invest dun, another problem is walang pang invest. Ang naiisip ko lang is yung ibenta ang isa pang coop slot ko sa office para lang makabili ng Paypal fund. More of less nasa $30 din siguro yun. I received an advice at mukhang dun muna ako magko concentrate pero di ko pa din sure talaga if willing ako e give up yung slot na yun

Past hints on my future career

After my husband sold his itouch to someone else over sulit.com.ph, we were able to transfer here in Bataan atlast! My daughter is now enrolled in Bataan Christian School and I think she's happy with her classmates, uniform and hairclip! When it comes to her studies, I think she's doing ok at school though there are times that she doesn't want to study at home and that would be my biggest challange now that I don't have a job and have all the time in the world.
We've already applied for a DSL connection but we still have to wait for 2 weeks. After that I have to enroll in a training for article writing and hope I pass so I could get a job that I could do anywhere as long as I have a stable internet connection. Sigh, if only I worked on my English skills since high school in the province, article writing would be a piece of cake now. There are really things in life that we can't predict but God already gave us a hint in our early life, too bad I only realized it after 10 years hahaha!
I remembered writing in our school paper when I was in 3rd or fourth year, it was a poem and a sports article. After being caesarian operated, I think I lost a lot of good memories in the past. I can't remember that poem I actually made, one thing I remember was working until 6:30 PM in the library and seen my work being edited by the school paper editor. After a few years, my daughter was about 2 years old by then, I was able to write for someone. I write in the middle of the night until everyone in the house is awake. I was able to earn a few bucks even though my grammar issues sucks I was really able to write and of course being edited by my employer again hehehe
I believe that these are God's hints for me in the past years. I never though that you could actually earn a lot just by writing if you do it by heart. I believe that in God's help I will overcome my weaknesses and in God's will also, I'll be able to find a good job that will support our needs and makes us worry-free in terms of financial stability.

Japanese & Korean Dramas: My stress buster

Its been four days now and still I haven't received my last paycheck. I'm losing my mind now where to borrow money since I have lots of debts and bills to be paid before we head back to my husband province. My daughter has to undergo an exam on Monday on her future big school, unfortunately her tuition fee is insufficient. Its not my nor may husband's decision for her to study at a private school because if we were to choose we would like her to enroll on a public school first but my in-laws want her to learn there. We've got so much bills to be paid and here I am with no proper work and no moolah.

We will be leaving tomorrow, if we both have money for the fare and I don't know if I could borrow from my sister or my mother who is in the province and still striving just to eat or another lending from my brother in law. I am too shy to ask from my sister because I still has unpaid debt from her. I don't really know what to do. Luckily, we still have wi-fi at home shared with my sister and I was able to use the internet for 300 pesos a month.

So now I am currently following Lie to Me by Yoon Eun Hye and was planning to get a haircut same as her haha! Too bad the whole episode isn't finished yet so I've got to wait for a few weeks for it to be completed. I am still at episode 8 and dying, just joking! :) I am also watching Manny, its a korean drama about a Man nanny.  I'm still waiting for episode 13. Both these dramas is up to episode 16. Hopefully I will still be able to watch these good Korean drama when we get back to province this week.

For a Japanese drama, Hanazakari no Kimitachi e (Hana Kimi) Japanese version is a must watch. Its not because I have a crush on Oguri Shun but because the characters are awesome especially Ikuta Toma.

Don't know what to do

Yes. I really don't know what to do now. Problems are piling up and the only solution is MONEY. Just resigned from work a few days ago and don't have savings to save my day until the end of the month when I'll finally get my last payment. My last payment which I will spend paying my debts with my eyes closed.

What are my debts? Hmm not much, but if I'm going to ignore it I'll be the one suffering in the end. Other than that I have a daughter who's going to take her exam on a private grade school and have to take an English tutorial first for she didn't passed the assessment of the school. I have to pay the monthly payment of my social security loan as well as my voluntary contribution and I don't have a stable job yet.

Months ago, I was consistent on my decision that I'm going to write web content articles. Not that I'm giving up its just that I don't have the confidence on writing now especially informative things. I know that I can express myself more on writing than in verbal but I think I don't have the heart now to write. Aside from that, my grammar sucks big time! And it really needs improvement as soon as possible if I want to work home-based.

Last week I was able to get a test from a possible nice paying article writing company. Unfortunately, I haven't received any news yet. I was able to do a virtual assistant job a few days ago too, and she only texted me once, haven't discussed the payment too. I am here now waiting for the end to come hahaha!

I wonder when will I get a job where I don't have to worry about things and do as my heart desires. As of now, I am doing paid to click where I could earn cents, not much but atleast to kill time and make use of the internet. I guess I really have to get an EON card if I want to indulge myself in this World Wide Web. I'm still hoping that I could have a home-based job soon so that I too, can provide for my family.